I can't believe how long it has been.  The last post I see on here is from 2009 (I think).  I'm watching an old episode of "Everybody Loves Raymond."  How funny.

I almost think it might be the pilot episode.

I laugh and laugh at this silly show.  Now, I think it is time to switch channels.  There I go.  "Mom" is on.  I love this show.

Television is my hobby now.  Nothing to do.  I have my fitbit on, but I don't really feel like walking around my dining room table or living room to get the 10,000 steps in.  I might in a few minutes, after I finish this blog.

A few weeks ago, the 10,000 steps were like a mad obsession.  I HAD to get them in.  Now, if I get them in--great.  If not, it really isn't any big deal.

For dinner, I made homemade mac and cheese.  Ever since I started making this and homemade chicken nuggets I can't eat the box mix (for mac and cheese) or fast food chicken nuggets.  Homemade is SOOO much better.  The mac and cheese went really well with the piece of polish sausage, too.

Also, sitting here thinking a lot about finances.  I am literally broke.  My main account is overdrawn, my paycheck is garnished, about to be (probably) garnished again, I'm cranky, overweight, but not giving up.  Oh--and, a mouse has taken up residence in my kitchen cupboard, despite the presence of, not one, but two cats.  Last night, Sheldon, my male cat, played 'cat and mouse' with it.

I can't help it.  Mice just plain creep me out.  UGH!  Bats are the same way.  The stupid little mouse ran over to the stairs leading to my bathroom and bedrooms, sat at the bottom, while Sheldon pawed at it.  He didn't kill it, though.

Hopefully, it will go back outside where it came from.  The last thing I need is the expense of an exterminator.  I can't even afford the store bought poison for it.

Things have to change.

Ever since Steven died, I feel happy/sad.  I can't believe that, despite my situation, I am finding a lot to be happy about.

Today, I spent the day with both my kids, all of my grandkids and got some alone time, too.  I still need to change a lot of things, mainly my fiscal responsibility, but I am lucky to be in my own home.  I'm reasonably healthy.  I have a job.  And family.  And friends.

I just need to get moving. And, a decent night's sleep.

That's all for now.